plumbing

so last nights dream was quite interesting... I found myself enclosed in a tight space filled with water and plumbing. Rather like you see in the movies except that in the movies there is some evil creature that inevitably gets the person. I wandered on and on through this endless maze. never really sure if I was going in the right direction or just going in circles. Some spaces were tighter than others some more open. Some of the pipes were very tangled and others were long and straight sections. The water was always about chest level. eventually I woke up feeling like I was not getting anywhere.

Snakes

Last night I had a dream I was chasing a 7 foot long venemous snake around the apartment. I never did see it or catch it. My friends just sat and ignored it. Weird.

unsettled

It has come to my attention that my other blog has "unsettled" someone. Considering this it has been removed. Not that anyone reads it anyway.

Three Times

I have lost everything I ever wanted three times in my life. This seems to be the trend and it shows no signs of ending any time soon. It would appear that I sabotage everything that I place value on and I have no one to blame but myself. I do not know how or why I do it. Probably some veiled attempt at protecting myself but in the end it just damages me anyway. I believe I am done. No more attempts. I can not take it anymore. This is the end. The turning away. I am incapable of living and loving in a possitive nurturing manner. I find I dont even know myself anymore. I have no joy, no passion, and no desire. I am empty and void.

I cought you a delicious bass

So, I went fishing this past weekend with my father and brother at Priest lake in Idaho. It was nice to spend a little time with at least some of the family. I think its funny how, most of the time, life just gets in the way of being together with people you care about. It was a good trip. Too short. Few fish. But enjoyable none the less. Chris and I hiked to the old mine. Found some quartz crystals. Had a fire on the beach. Drank beer. Smoked. All in all a good weekend. I guess its nice to see Mom and Dad when there are no formal holiday pressures. Just fishing and sitting.

postsecret

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So, during a recent conversation with a young lady, I mentioned that I was interested in the PostSecret book and websight. This is an amazing book. If you dont have it, buy it. The next morning when I stopped to get my coffee, she gave me a copy as a way saying thank you for listening. Aparently she drove across town that evening to pick it up. One for her and one for me. This is the nicest thing someone has done for me in a long time. Thank you B. And thank you for listening.