Let this dark night be done

Life for me seems to be a circle. The end of one thing becomes a new thing or change is a simple form of death and birth that feels like marrying then divorcing both heaven and hell in an inexorable circle forever and ever amen. Life is death. Pain is a prelude to rebirth. I am inside out. Or maybe just upside down. But one the one thing I do know is this; I do not know which way up is.