Confusion

I have to say I am feeling really confused alot lately. Maybe not confused but I don't really care about anything. Kind of like I don't know what I am doing or where I am going. I don't know what I want (or if I want anything). Maybe I am just afraid to live my life. I guess maybe I am looking for a "peak moment" that just doesn't seem to be coming around. I know everything doesn't have to be a bliss ride but I want some ups and downs. Everything seems to be just flat. Perhaps I am being drug down by the mundane. Perhaps I am just lonesome (even surrounded by people). I think maybe I am just bored. dunno.